Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Windy loong weekend- another deadline- (no back pain this time though!) Had to deal with a very temperamental- unpredictable-distant client who 90% of time is too busy to communicate at all what's expected-who thinks I have esp (I do a lot- seriously= something to do w/quantum physics maybe)- I still luv her-- though I don't like her sometimes. So anyhow- I'm verry tired and feel as if the wind has blown my eyes out of my pumpkinhead along with other facial features. So here is the sketch of it for Halloween- which it still is in some parts of the world. I want to go on and on some more like I often do as a long winded doof (I had hoped to do sketch of me as a long winded doof- but ran out of wind)- but I'll stop here as t I fear my face will never get back in place if I don't get to sleep now--does any of this make any sense?-------zzzzzzzzzzzzz

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Ghost sketches:






























I remember so clearly when I first read this in late 1992- loved it, and related, and still do- but haven't read since- till today when I saw this week's IF topic-- it suddenly materialized up to the front of my pumpkinhead (no illustration of this yet):

The Immortal Walt Whitman

"Crossing Brooklyn Ferry"

    1
Flood-tide below me! I see you face to face!
Clouds of the west - sun there half an hour high - I see you also face to face.

Crowds of men and women attired in the usual costumes, how curious you are to me!
On the ferry-boats the hundreds and hundreds that cross, returning home, are
      more curious to me than you suppose,
And you that shall cross from shore to shore years hence are more to me, and
      more in my meditations, than you might suppose.

    2
The impalpable sustenance of me from all things at all hours of the day,
The simple, compact, well-joined scheme, myself disintegrated, everyone
      disintegrated yet part of the scheme,
The similitudes of the past and those of the future,
The glories strung like beads on my smallest sights and hearings, on the walk in
      the street and the passage over the river,
The current rushing so swiftly and swimming with me far away,
The others that are to follow me, the ties between me and them,
The certainty of others, the life, love, sight, hearing of others.

Others will enter the gates of the ferry and cross from shore to shore,
Others will watch the run of the flood-tide,
Others will see the shipping of Manhattan north and west, and the heights of
        Brooklyn to the south and east,
Others will see the islands large and small;
Fifty years hence, others will see them as they cross, the sun half and hour high,
A hundred years hence, or ever so many hundred years hence, others will see them,
Will enjoy the sunset, the pouring-in of the flood-tide, the falling-back to the
       sea of the ebb-tide.

    3
It avails not, time nor place - distance avails not,
I am with you, you men and women of a generation, or ever so many generations
        hence,
Just as you feel when you look on the river and sky, so I felt,
Just as any of you is one of a living crowd, I was one of a crowd,
Just as you are refreshed by the gladness of the river and the bright flow,
       I was refreshed,
Just as you stand and lean on the rail, yet hurry with the swift current, 
       I stood yet was hurried,
Just as you look on the numberless masts of ships and the thick-stemmed pipes
       of steamboats, I looked.

I too many and many a time crossed the river of old,
Watched the Twelfth-month seagulls, saw them high in the air floating with
        motionless wings, oscillating their bodies,
Saw how the glistening yellow lit up parts of their bodies and left the rest
       in strong shadow,
Saw the slow-wheeling circles and the gradual edging toward the south,
Saw the reflection of the summer sky in the water,
Had my eyes dazzled by the shimmering track of beams,
Looked at the fine centrifugal spokes of light round the the shape of my head
       in the sunlit water,
Looked on the haze on the hills southward and south-westward,
Looked on the vapour as it flew in fleeces tinged with violet,
Looked toward the lower bay to notice the vessels arriving,
Saw their approach, saw aboard those that were near me,
Saw the white sails of schooners and sloops, saw the ships at anchor,
The sailors at work in the rigging or out astride the spars,
The round masts, the swinging motion of the hulls, the slender serpentine pennants,
The large and small steamers in motion, the pilots in their pilot-houses,
The white wake left by the passage, the quick tremulous whirl of the wheels,
The flags of all nations, the falling of them at sunset,
The scallop-edged waves in the twilight, the ladled cups, the frolicsome crests
      and glistening,
The stretch afar growing dimmer and dimmer, the gray walls of the granite
      storehouses by the docks,
On the river the shadowy group, the big steam-tug closely flanked on each side
by the barges, the hay-boat, the belated lighter,
On the neighboring shore the fires from the foundry chimneys burning high and
     glaringly into the night,
Casting their flicker of black contrasted with wild red and yellow light over
     the tops of houses, and down into the clefts of streets.

    4
These and all else were to me the same as they are to you,
I loved well those cities, loved well the stately and rapid river,
The men and women I saw were all near to me,
Others the same - others who look back on me because I looked forward to them,
(The time will come, though I stop here today, and tonight.)

    5
What is it then between us?
What is the count of the scores or hundreds of years between us?

Whatever it is, it avails not - distance avails not, and place avails not,
I too lived, Brooklyn of ample hills was mine,
I too walked the streets of Manhattan island, and bathed in the waters around it,
I too felt the curious abrupt questionings stir within me,
In the day among crowds of people sometimes they came upon me,
In my walks home late at night or as I lay in my bed they came upon me,
I too had been struck from the float forever held in solution,
I too had received identity by my body,
That I was I knew was of my body, and what I should be I knew I should be of
      my body.

    6
It is not upon you alone the dark patches fall,
The dark threw its patches down upon me also,
The best I had done seemed to me blank and suspicious,
My great thoughts as I supposed them, were they not in reality meagre?
Nor is it you alone who know what it is to be evil,
I am he who knew what it was to be evil,
I too knitted the old knot of contrariety,
Blabbed, blushed, resented, lied, stole, grudged,
Had guile, anger, lust, hot wishes I dared not speak,
Was wayward, vain, greedy, shallow, sly, cowardly, malignant,
The wolf, the snake, the hog, not wanting in me,
The cheating look, the frivolous word, the adulterous wish, not wanting,
Refusals, hates, postponements, meanness, laziness, none of these wanting,
Was one with the rest, the days and haps of the rest,
Was called by my nighest name by clear loud voices of young men as they saw me
       approaching or passing,
Felt their arms on my neck as I stood, or the negligent leaning of their flesh
       against me as I sat,
Saw many I loved in the street or ferry-boat or public assembly, yet never
       told them a word,
Lived the same life with the rest, the same old laughing, gnawing, sleeping,
Played the part that still looks back on the actor or actress,
The same old role, the role that is what we make it, as great as we like,
Or as small as we like, or both great and small.

    7
Closer yet I approach you,
What thought you have of me now, I had as much of you - I laid in my stores
        in advance,
I considered long and seriously of you before you were born.

Who was to know what should come home to me?
Who knows but I am enjoying this?
Who knows, for all the distance, but I am as good as looking at you now, for 
       all you cannot see me?

    8
Ah, what can ever be more stately and admirable to me than mast-hemmed
      Manhattan?
River and sunset and scallop-edged waves of flood-tide?
The seagulls oscillating their bodies, the hay-boat in the twilight, and the 
      belated lighter?
What gods can exceed these that clasp me by the hand, and with voices I love
      call me promptly and loudly by my nighest name as I approach?
What is more subtle than this which ties me to the woman or man that looks in
      my face?
Which fuses me into you now, and pours my meaning into you?

We understand then do we not?
What I promised without mentioning it, have you not accepted?
What the study could not teach - what the preaching could not accomplish is
accomplished, is it not?

    9
Flow on, river! flow with the flood-tide, and ebb with the ebb-tide!
Frolic on, crested and scallop-edged waves!
Gorgeous clouds of the sunset! drench with your splendor me, or the men and
       women generations after me!
Cross from shore to shore, countless crowds of passengers!
Stand up, tall masts of Mannahatta! stand up, beautiful hills of Brooklyn!
Throb, baffled and curious brain! throw out questions and answers!
Suspend here and everywhere, eternal float of solution!
Gaze, loving and thirsting eyes, in the house or street or public assembly!
Sound out, voices of young men! loudly and musically call me by my nighest name!
Live, old life! play the part that looks back on the actor or actress!
Play the old role, the role that is great or small according as one makes it!
Consider, you who peruse me, whether I may not in unknown ways be looking
       upon you;
Be firm, rail over the river, to support those who lean idly, yet haste with the
       hasting current;
Fly on, sea-birds! fly sideways, or wheel in large circles high in the air;
Receive the summer sky, you water, and faithfully hold it till all downcast eyes
       have time to take it from you!
Diverge, fine spokes of light, from the shape of my head, or any one's head, in
      the sunlit water!
Come on, ships from the lower bay! pass up or down, white-sailed schooners,
      sloops, lighters!
Flaunt away, flags of all nations! be duly lowered at sunset!
Burn high your fires, foundry chimneys! cast black shadows at nightfall! cast
      red and yellow light over the tops of the houses!
Appearances, now or henceforth, indicate what you are,
You necessary film, continue to envelop the soul,
About my body for me, and your body for you, be hung our divinest aromas,
Thrive, cities - bring your freight, bring your shows, ample and sufficient rivers,
Expand, being than which none else is perhaps more spiritual,
Keep your places, objects than which none else is more lasting.

You have waited, you always wait, you dumb, beautiful ministers,
We receive you with free sense at last, and are insatiate henceforward,
Not you any more shall be able to foil us, or withhold yourselves from us,
We use you, and do not cast you aside -we plant you permanently within us,
We fathom you not - we love you - there is perfection in you also,
You furnish your parts toward eternity,
Great or small, you furnish your parts toward the soul.
 

Monday, October 16, 2006

Smitten recovering from another deadline weekend w/backache- but whatever.
Here's my post for smitten?:



Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Trouble= when you pull something in your lower back, and should lie down- and avoid sitting-- but must sit and meet a stressful deadline all weekend.

I finished my deadline- maybe- unless there are changes- my back is almost all better- so now here's a post:
I took the trouble to have my tires rotated and balanced etc., and during part of the long wait, did quick and dirty sketch of elephant. I read great article on elephants --sad parallels between them and us- much trouble:














Balance in everything, and tread as lightly as you can.



Trouble- 'let sleeping dogs lie'- when you have company- and not enough chew thingies to go around...Click to see larger trouble: